Posts tagged classical music
Why I'm Grateful for Anxiety

“Anxiety is no one’s friend,” is what my doctor said to me as I broke down in tears in front of her.

I was most certainly NOT grateful for anxiety when it was happening. I was mad at it. I wanted it to go away with every fiber of my being. I blamed it for taking over my life. It felt like a monster holding my body and my brain hostage.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 3 - Desperation & Setting Boundaries

I felt worse during that first week of medication than I did when my anxiety first started. I felt like I was going crazy. Intrusive thoughts invaded my consciousness, and I had to constantly coach myself and repeat affirmations on a loop.

I decided to stop the medication because I was terrified of the way I was feeling.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 2 - Coming to Grips with Anxiety

That initial anxiety attack was rough, but as I mentioned in Part 1, I thought it was a one-off thing. I felt SO much better after that concert was over that I thought it was a just an unusually intense bout of performance anxiety, and all would be well again.

Back at home in Kentucky, I couldn’t shake the feeling of nausea. I didn’t want to eat very much because I was afraid of getting sick again. This went on for weeks. I started dropping weight.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 1 - My First Anxiety Attack on Concert Day

It all started with a dinner. A fun, fancy, faculty dinner meant to be a celebration of the end of camp (and a reprieve from camp food). And it would have been celebratory except something didn’t quite settle with me.

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FREE WORKSHOP: Meditation for Musicians

I’m so excited to announce the first workshop co-hosted by The Sound Musician!

If you are a musician living in or around Lexington, KY, I hope you’ll join licensed therapist Natalie Deering and I for a FREE Meditation for Musicians workshop at Creatures of Whim in downtown Lexington on Thursday, February 28th!

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Introducing The Sound Musician: A Blog for Musicians Seeking to Feel Whole

Oh my goodness, hello! And welcome to The Sound Musician! It’s been a long time coming…

Seriously, I first started dreaming about a blog during my master’s degree around 2011/2012. Always interested in wellness, I dreamt up THIS blog during my doctorate in 2014 (though, my husband swears

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