Posts tagged anxiety disorder
Why I'm Grateful for Anxiety

“Anxiety is no one’s friend,” is what my doctor said to me as I broke down in tears in front of her.

I was most certainly NOT grateful for anxiety when it was happening. I was mad at it. I wanted it to go away with every fiber of my being. I blamed it for taking over my life. It felt like a monster holding my body and my brain hostage.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 4 - The Healing Process

Every night before bed I would write down ten specific things that I was grateful for that day. Not general things that I’m always grateful for like my husband, my friends and family, and our home, but specific things like not having to wear makeup that day, a new candle, having leftovers for lunch, etc.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 3 - Desperation & Setting Boundaries

I felt worse during that first week of medication than I did when my anxiety first started. I felt like I was going crazy. Intrusive thoughts invaded my consciousness, and I had to constantly coach myself and repeat affirmations on a loop.

I decided to stop the medication because I was terrified of the way I was feeling.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 2 - Coming to Grips with Anxiety

That initial anxiety attack was rough, but as I mentioned in Part 1, I thought it was a one-off thing. I felt SO much better after that concert was over that I thought it was a just an unusually intense bout of performance anxiety, and all would be well again.

Back at home in Kentucky, I couldn’t shake the feeling of nausea. I didn’t want to eat very much because I was afraid of getting sick again. This went on for weeks. I started dropping weight.

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