Are You Preoccupied With Yourself? Ideas for Slowing the Thought Tornadoes

So I googled, “How to get out of your head.”

Which led me down a rabbit hole until I found this TED Talk. A light bulb went off while watching it – it was confirmation of that which I knew to be true – I am overly preoccupied with myself!

That can be the danger of summer, I think. With more time to yourself, you also have more time to spin your thoughts around until they become full blown thought tornadoes.

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Takeaways from Musicians' Wellness Day

I thought today I could share with you some of the key takeaways from the Wellness Day presentations because they were so, so good!

And if you scroll to the bottom, you can download the handout from my session “Becoming a Sound Musician: Self-Care Tools to Support the Whole Musician.” Hope you enjoy!

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Announcement Season

Every time I’d see the “I’m happy to announce” post on Facebook, I would get 1) jealous and 2) really down on myself.

Not that I wouldn’t be happy for that other person, but I’d always feel like I wasn’t good enough. My CV wasn’t impressive enough. I didn’t have enough experience (that one still confounds me).

I am a dud and no one wants me.

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Go Practice.. Your Self-Care

You can’t perform your best if all you’ve consumed is coffee, granola bars, and pizza for three days.

You can’t focus during your finals if you haven’t slept.

And for me, I am the most musical when I’m in a relaxed, flow state – not riddled with tension and anxiety.

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Why I'm Grateful for Anxiety

“Anxiety is no one’s friend,” is what my doctor said to me as I broke down in tears in front of her.

I was most certainly NOT grateful for anxiety when it was happening. I was mad at it. I wanted it to go away with every fiber of my being. I blamed it for taking over my life. It felt like a monster holding my body and my brain hostage.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 4 - The Healing Process

Every night before bed I would write down ten specific things that I was grateful for that day. Not general things that I’m always grateful for like my husband, my friends and family, and our home, but specific things like not having to wear makeup that day, a new candle, having leftovers for lunch, etc.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 3 - Desperation & Setting Boundaries

I felt worse during that first week of medication than I did when my anxiety first started. I felt like I was going crazy. Intrusive thoughts invaded my consciousness, and I had to constantly coach myself and repeat affirmations on a loop.

I decided to stop the medication because I was terrified of the way I was feeling.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 2 - Coming to Grips with Anxiety

That initial anxiety attack was rough, but as I mentioned in Part 1, I thought it was a one-off thing. I felt SO much better after that concert was over that I thought it was a just an unusually intense bout of performance anxiety, and all would be well again.

Back at home in Kentucky, I couldn’t shake the feeling of nausea. I didn’t want to eat very much because I was afraid of getting sick again. This went on for weeks. I started dropping weight.

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My Anxiety Story: Part 1 - My First Anxiety Attack on Concert Day

It all started with a dinner. A fun, fancy, faculty dinner meant to be a celebration of the end of camp (and a reprieve from camp food). And it would have been celebratory except something didn’t quite settle with me.

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FREE WORKSHOP: Meditation for Musicians

I’m so excited to announce the first workshop co-hosted by The Sound Musician!

If you are a musician living in or around Lexington, KY, I hope you’ll join licensed therapist Natalie Deering and I for a FREE Meditation for Musicians workshop at Creatures of Whim in downtown Lexington on Thursday, February 28th!

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Introducing The Sound Musician: A Blog for Musicians Seeking to Feel Whole

Oh my goodness, hello! And welcome to The Sound Musician! It’s been a long time coming…

Seriously, I first started dreaming about a blog during my master’s degree around 2011/2012. Always interested in wellness, I dreamt up THIS blog during my doctorate in 2014 (though, my husband swears

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